But then again...

Disasters. War. Sorrow. Torture. Loneliness. Death.

Humans survive these.

And yet, being human, why can't I survive this pain that overcomes me?

Diamond eyes.

"I will take, you away, with me

Once and for all

Time will see us realign

Diamonds rain across the sky

Shower me into the same realm

Calculate, all embrace, hold on

(Come with me now)

Run away, outer space, with me

Once and for all."

Christmas wish list.

1. A TX5

Merry Christmas!

Happy Thursday!

Christmas is creeping up! *shiny eyes*


Currently listening to Edward Maya - This is my life.

In every way i can imagine.

It's a beautiful Saturday!

Innit?

The weather is awesome. The feel is great. And here i am, noming on a slice of chocolate cheese cake comfortably on my bed. I have to get ready for a wedding reception that's about to happen in less than 2 hours.

Speaking of weddings. What do you buy people for their wedding? I honestly, don't know. As far as i can remember, 23years of living, i've only bought Nisha a wedding present. A photo frame. I was out of ideas. Soooo boring kan? OMG. In my defence, i was rushing. I had such limited time, okay?!

And so, i decided to go a little crazy today with the wedding gift. Can you guess what i bought?

................................................................................................................................................

No?

I bought my dear friend some lingerie.

Did i go a little tooo crazy with the gift?

I think i did.

But hey, i don't think anyone would buy the happy couple lingerie. They'd probably get photo frames(LMAO), tea cups or lampshades. My mother is the serial tea set gifter. She says it's useful, you know, when the couple has guests. Right.

I say, entertaining guests will most definitely NOT be the first thing on their minds. (If you know what i'm sayin!) So, yeah.

Lingerie.

Babies!

Happy weekend!

With love,

Bunny Wabbit.

Reality of dreams.

Hey kids!

How are you? Good? Good!

I had a very disturbing dream last night. It's like one of those dreams where you're in a familiar place and you're given a choice of two doors to pick. You pick the right one, it's all rainbows, bunnies and cupcakes. But have you ever wondered what's behind the other door? What if you thought you picked the right door, only to find out it was never the right door. (Okaayy, i dunno if i'm making any sense to you right now.)

The difference is, in my dream i knew exactly what were behind those two doors. It felt so surreal. And truly being the indecisive human being i've always been since i was a little girl, i didn't know which door to pick, although i knew what was waiting for me behind each door.

An extremely negative trait that i possess is running or hiding away from conflicts of any kind. Instead of facing the cold, harsh reality and move on, i run away from it. I always play safe. ALWAYS. But how long can i stay safe if i keep running away? How long can i run as fast i do now? Sooner or later (I prefer later!), i don't think i'll be able to run as fast as i'm running now and every single thing i ran or hid away from is going to come crawling up to my skin.

That was exactly what i did in the dream too. I ran away. As fast as i could. I woke up to my BB showing me 4.47am and wondering "Where the fuck did that come from?!"

And yes, i was late to work.



I'm no where near THE LIST! (Not that i'm complaining.)

I was back in my hometown yesterday. Shot down after work for an old friend's engagement. (Everyone's getting married!) It felt good to be home, in presence of the folks. I realised how much i miss the both of them. They're getting old. Sigh. Age hits everyone, doesn't it?

Anyhoo, we got to the engagement around 7ish pm. Priya looked so pretty. She'd be a very beautiful bride. Lucky guy! And yeah, everyone kept telling me "You're next!" And i'm like "Heh. Not really, no." If you guys have been following you'd know Marshmellow and i are no longer together. We decided to call things off after 4 looonnggg years. Weird? Yes. Because they'd all know by now that i'm no longer on THE LIST! It's been a year since we ended things. An yet, they ask me things like "When are you planning yours?". Living in a town like Port Dickson, everyone knows every other living being's business. My neighbour even makes a fuss about our dog peeing in OUR own garden!

And so, i had to duck away and run from every Aunty and Uncle who knew me so that i could skip the whole ackward "When's your turn? Bla Bla" conversation. That was a little hard to do since i was wearing a blood red Punjabi suit with bright silver sequins. I think i overdressed. In no way trying to overshadow the bride. I swear. Priya's one of my best friends, for love's sake!

While i was on hideout, my dad was by my side the whole time (My dad's the best!), i saw a very pretty girl walking around in a beautiful green saree. She looked so familiar. So very familiar. But i couldn't make out who she was. While we were at the dinner table, with a whole bunch of people, she came by our table to say goodbye. Next thing you know, my mum's like "Sonia's here!", and pointed at me, i looked up, Payasam (Indian sweet porridge) still half way to my mouth. She walked over to me and that was when i realised who she was. 

A very OLD school friend which i had not kept in touch for in AGES! Shalini! She looked so glowly! She came by and landed a peck on my cheek. "OMG. So long since i saw you!"

We had a small catch up session. She's married now. Wow. I'll say it again! EVERYONE'S either married or GETTING married. The whole journey from the hall to home was an ackward one with my mum going on about who's on the list already and who's getting there. I was silent all the way, realising how hard it is to be Indian. No, seriously! When you're a kid, it's about studies and grades, then it's about "working in a good company, with a good job" and then there's the whole deal about finding an ideal partner. My mum even volunteered to look for a candidate! INSANITY to a whole new level!

I wonder how the community is gonna react if i bring home a tattoed, pierced guy who works as a nurse.

I'm different. Always have been.

DEAL WITH IT.



Still awake.

Three posts in one night! I'm on a roll.

And so, i decided to post up some pictures that were taken in the office during Halloween! :)

Yes, people. I was a cat. Yes, a CAT! With a tiny bow and everything. I couldn't think of anything else.

Okeytengsbai.

Life can be so sweet.

PS: Currently listening to Ghost Train by Counting Crows.

Graveyard shifts & robots.

So yeah, i work graveyard shifts and for the past 2 months i've been on the 5am shift which to me is totally insane because i'm SO NOT A MORNING PERSON. I have a bad habit of sleeping late every night which makes it hard for me to get my ass up at 4am! This is totally on me because i have another bad habit of taking long "naps" in the afternoon after work. (I wouldn't call it a nap if it's a duration of 4-5hours. -___-)

And when i sleep THAT long in the afternoons, it isn't easy to fall asleep at night! (Go, figure!)

9.15pm- What shall i eat tonight?
9.16pm- If i ate anything right now and fall asleep right after, i'm gonna get fat.
9.18pm- Oh, wait. I'm already fat.
9.19pm- Fat whore. Fat whore. Fat whore.
9.20pm- *Noms on a whole box of Famous Amos while watching reruns of Vampire Diaries*

10.00pm- *Stares at empty box of Famous Amos*
10.00pm- Fat whore. Fat whore. Fat whore.
10.01pm- Noone's gonna marry me. -____________-
10.02pm- I wonder if they'd invent robots with feelings by the time i reach the age to get married.
10.03pm- Robots who look like Rajinikanth?
10.03pm- Wow. Robots who look like Rajinikanth.
10.05pm- Or robots who look like Haley Joel Osment, just a more grown up version of him.
10.10pm- Do robots have sex?
10.11pm- ..................................................................
10.23pm- *Sings "Like a G6"*
10.25pm- What if there really were robots living among us?
10.26pm- No, like seriously.
10.27pm- Wow. I wonder what they eat.
10.30pm- ...................................................................
10.32pm- *Watches some robot videos on YouTube*
11.43pm- Okaaaayyy. I don't think i'd wanna have sex with a robot.
11.45pm- *Noms on a big fat peanut butter and jelly sandwich*
12.00am- Oh, noooo! Fat whore. Fat whore. Fat whore.
12.02am- Noone's gonna marry me.
12.05am- ....................................................................
12.15am- Then my mum would have to find me a husband, which will most probably be a nerd who wears  black thick-framed glasses who wears his pants up to his belly button.
12.16am- *Imagines mum with a gigantic smile, saying "A very good Indian boy. He works in a bank!"*
12.20am- I'd rather have sex with a robot.

-__________________-

To do list.

1. CLEAN ROOM!

Happy Sunday.

Bummer. Sunday, already?! Time flies. I had a pretty okay weekend. I went for dinner in Tropicana Mall, then for a bit of retail therapy. (I've got new sex shoes!) *shiny eyes* I managed to do a few chores and last night i was hanging at The Hill in Jalan Dungun with Dev, Neshalany and Jas. I'd have to say the place is awesome! Very chilled out and they've got some funky-ass names for their alcoholic drinks (which tasted reallllyy good too!!)

Anyhoo, i made a promise to myself to try and update this sad blog a little more. I've been abandoning it for quite a while now. -______-

So, expect more DAILY/WEEKLY updates! (I'll try my very best, kayyy?) And believe me, with more pictures cause i know ya'll looovvveeee pictures.

And for today, i'll leave you with a few pictures of Nisha's Blue Baby Shower i attended months ago!

Already a mummy to little Raavan. :) :)

Have a great day, loves!

It takes a couple of seconds to say hello but it takes forever to say goodbye.

Goodbye.

I'm letting go.

Meow~

Hey, kids!

The month has been a little hectic with eaarrrlllyyy shifts at work. Been a little worn out. Sorry, no updates!

Anyhooo, besides working i've been keeping myself busy watching Vampire Diaries. (I'm hooked! Thanks to Ms. Jasmine.) It's addictive, i swear!

Speaking of addictive, i made a very impulsive buy about two weeks ago. (Definitely worth it, though!) Yes, people. Some of you readers know it alreaddyyy. -__________-

***drum rolls***

I bought myself a BlackBerry 9700.

I'd have to say, it's pretty awesome. I'm definitely in love! *shiny eyes*

Good night, loves!

PS: Halloween's drawing clossseerrrr!

Oh, no!

I just burned a GIGANTIC hole in my pocket.

Totally impulsive.

-___________________________-

I'm craving...

For a juiiicccyyy chicken burger. *drrrooollsss*

TGIF? Almost! *shiny eyes*

My weekend is about to start in less than 24 hours! *HAAAPPPPYYY*
I absolutely LOVE weekends. Hey, who doesn't?!

One of our awesome Friday nights!

Have a great weekend, babies!

.....

I busted my side mirror today.

What a fucked up day.

Mera puther~

Happy belated birthday, bhaii!

Hoi hoi~

Thank you so much for being around for me throughout this difficult times. MUACKKSS!

Hugs and kisses,

Teri Sonia.

"I know it's not your fault, but i'm a locked door."

"We've got a million keys, but none of them seem to fit."

The heart is a very complicated organ. Messes up your whole being.

PS: Currently listening to "Need You" by Travis McCoy.

Have a great weekend, kids!

I'm having a spiritual one.

"The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, not to worry about the future, or not to anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly."

- Buddha.

I love you, Friday.

I just got home for work! And my weekend starts from NOOOOWW~

It was a pretty effed up day at work. I can't even remember the amount of problematic cases i had to handle. Oh, well. Welcome to the world of Customer Service.

But it's a Fridaaayyy! And i'm off from work til Monday! How AWESOME is that?! *shiny eyes*

Just a random one. Have an awesome weekend, you sexy people!

Elegance at it's best.

Introducing

Bella Kiss.

Hiiiiiii!

Babies!!!

I'm baaacckk. :) :)

It's been such a looooooong time, hasn't it? I've been such a busy little bee with everything that has been going on lately. I'm more settled in at my new place. Room's set up, kitchen to cook in, awesome housemates and of course, my ever so beautiful Bella to fulfill my transportation needs. What more can a girl ask for, eh?

I do admit, things have been a little different lately. Okaayy. Not a little but VERY different. I am definitely coping with the changes. Slowly but surely. I've been keeping myself busy with work and friends. Things are looking up! :)

Anyhooo, updates on work! I've been with the company for 7 months now! (Phew!) I feel proud as i didn't think i was gonna last this long due to the crazy crazy crazy stress level! But yeah, i've got no complaints.

I have been extremely retarded socially since i got the job AND after the break up. The only thing i wanted to do was to come back, lay in a foetal position and cry my eyes out. I'll have to admit, that state does hit me once in a while but it's definitely better compared to my pathetic situation i was in about a month back. It was insane. Yes. INSANE. But trust me when i say, PRAYERS help you in ways you can never imagine!

This post is to more exciting changes to come! I miss blogging. Oh, yes. I do. I do.

Til next time, boys and girls.

Much love,

Bunny Wabbit. (Back in action!)

PS: A recent picture of me at work during Raya. The ever cheerful Kak Mazni promoting Makmur candy AKA Mahmud's Balls. (LMAO!)

:)

The net's up and running!

I WANT A PAIR!

Dr. Seuss-Themed Chucks! OMFFFGG.

Bunny+ Alcohol+ Girlfriends

=

Good times! :) :)

I need an alarm clock.

A loud one!

Goodbye, bad times.

Dear readers,

I may have got you wondering about my mindless ramblings about life, boys, work and even my menstrual periods! (GOSH.) I know i've been out of the radar for quiiiteee a while now. I've been busy sorting out my life. Yes, a lot has changed.

Marshmellow and i called it quits. It happened almost six months ago after four loooong years together. I was broken. I was lost. Fresh wound but i'll be alright! I'm not going to get into intimate details, but yeah. It's over.

It was a hassle for me (and VERY painful) to live in Shah Alam and travel to work in PJ EVERY SINGLE DAY. I was in shit for the first three months of the break up. I was always always always late for work. (I'm surprised my boss hasn't fired me for all that lateness!) I had majorrr attitude issues, i didn't even know who i was anymore. I had to move in temporarily with the girlfriend so that i didn't have to go through the pain of seeing him all the time. (We lived verrryy close by.) I had to go through majorr humiliation and pain, emotional and physical. You've devoted your whole being to that one person and the next thing you know, you have nothing left. Everything that means something to you has been taken away. Like i mentioned, it was shit. S.H.I.T

But yeah, things are looking a little more brighter on my side now. I'm getting things back on track. Slowly but SURELY! I moved back to PJ about a month ago so it was closer to work. My boss couldn't handle the lateness anymore so he recommended a place nearby. (Thank you, boss!) I absolutely love my new place! And, and, and... I have the best housemate in the world! No, i mean it! I LOVE LOVE LOVE her! She's super super awesome.

I do miss the old times. I do miss the communication. I do miss the laughs. But i realise it's all for good and everything has to come to an end, one way or the other. I've been wanting to remain friends but circumstances are not allowing that to happen with us. So, yeah. It's all for the better, i hope?

Phew! There! Got that off my chest. So now, wonder no more. That's all for now, folks. Til the next post! Toodlesss~

RIP.

You will be missed.

*8445*

I finally got her.

I love you, GOD.

Sexy times.

Just an old picture, for fun.

Have an awesome weekend, kids!

Single beds and threat mails.

Babies!

It's been a while.

So sorry i haven't been updating. CAUGHT UP with work. *screams* It's only my third month and it's mentally and physically straining! But hey, you gotta do what you gotta do.

I've been on a look out for a nearer place to work about 2 months ago. Cab bills are insane! And i've been getting threat mails from weird people. I've been bunking in with the girlfriend for the past two weeks. Poor baby, has to share a single bed with a "fleshy" me, EVERY SINGLE DAY.

I'm still patiently waiting for my dearest Bella Kiss. Hoping and hoping that she'd be delivered to me ASAP. *crosses fingers*

That's all the updates for now, kids! I'm actually blogging from work! Yikes. Til' the next update. I'm gonna miss yoouuu.

Kisses*

She's FINALLY arriving.

After a year looong painful wait.

Best birthday present, EVER.

Demonnnnnn~

My baby's back with me. YAY!

Where are the rainbows and bunnies?

It hasn't been a very good week for me.

Loneliness is slowly creeping in on me. I hate that feeling. It's my 2nd month at work and i am officially hooked on to caffeine and shockingly, nicotine as well. I wouldn't blame work altogether for the sudden addiction since my personal life has been so effed lately.

And when i thought things couldn't get any worse, Demon fell very ill. He got admitted last night. Seriously, how am i suppose to stay sane with everything that's taking place? I'm losing everything that matters the MOST.

Yellooowww.

Babies!

How have all of you been? Good? GOOD!

It's been too long. Wayyy too long. Oh, how much i've missed blogging.

Like i posted in my previous entry, i am OFFICIALLY a working girl now. (I'm still so excited about it!) I've been out of touch with the cyber world for almost a month now. Connection's down, again. I'm actually blogging from work now. (Shhh~) Is that prohibited? I, honestly, don't know.

Anyhooo, life's been a little different lately. So many things have happened in such a short time. Many, many things. Updates when i actually decide to broadcast my personal life to the entire world.

Have a great weekend, kids!

What's in your package?

Babies! It's been wayyy too long. I'm sorry i haven't updated! Been a busy little bee. I am officially a working girl now! It's pretty okay except for the part where you can't do ANYTHING regular anymore. Err.. Like going to the bank at 11am and paying your bills at the post office. (I hate that!) I'm totally old-fashioned! Never believed in online banking. Well, until now. I registered for all the e-bankings!

Urm. Other than that, things have been pretty much the same. Just that i sleep at a decent hour now. No, seriously. I do!

I miss blogging! Ignore the title. I'm running outta ideas.

Goodnight, folks!

Happy, happy!

I "curi tulang" and take pictures in the toilet during work.

Sue me.

Super yay!

My tummy's feeling content cause i had Indian food for lunch!

Solar-powered Bibles sent to Haiti. Seriously?

No offence to anyone but I don't think these are going to bring them much RELIEF.

Not when they're in desperate need of food and shelter. All that money spent for these technological features could have been put to better use. Err. Like KEEPING THEM ALIVE?

"I don't trust something that bleeds for five days and doesn't die."

Yes. It's that friggin' time of the month, again. *groans* I hate having my period. It's the worst thing, EVERRR. I know periods are usually accompanied by pain, but who cares if it's common? It hurts like a bitch! I can never get anything done except lay in a foetal position and just cry all day. It's THAT bad! I have severe menstrual pains very frequently and to this day, things have only gotten worse. I've tried all kinds of remedies. Nothing works except painkillers in VERY high dosages.

WHEN TO SEE A DOCTOR.

• Your cramps are so severe, you can't attend school or work or keep up to your usual activities.
• Your cramps are accompanied by headaches, nausea, diarrhea and vomitting.
• You bleed very heavily or pass clots for more than one day.
• Your painful cramps suddenly begin in adulthood.
• Your cramps are not relieved by taking aspirin.

SOURCE: www.mothernature.com

Time for me to see a doctor!

PS: Sorry, boys! Girl issues.

Much love.

Whoa. Didn't see that coming.

I went for a medical check-up today due to a career change. It was my very first full on body check-up. And it was awfully, awfully...

INAPPROPRIATE.

*shifts nervously*

Toughen up, little soldier.

I'm having a rough month. Things aren't really going the way i hoped they would. Today, i had a sudden realisation.

"Toughen up, little soldier", he said.

That made me smile.

Quote of the day.

" When I was twelve, I went hunting with my father and we shot a bird. He was laying there and something struck me. Why do we call this fun to kill this creature [who] was as happy as I was when I woke up this morning. "

-Marv Levy.

Where art thou?

I miss my Green-eyed Monster. -_______-

My little baby elephant. :)

Babies! How you doing? Good? Good!

I was so bored yesterday, i assembled a little garden-like thingy at home. Hehe. I LOVE the elephant. (I have a thing for elephants! And anything associated with them.) Got it from a second-hand furniture store. It was love at first sight!

Still looks a little sad. But it'll get better by the month! :)

Russian trance motherfff kicks ass!

I like myself more today than i did yesterday.

I leave you with "Moscow Never Sleeps" by DJ Smash.

Teringin menuju ke alam astral dalam kapal angkasa.

Hai kawan-kawan. Amacam? Baik?

Selamat hari Sabtu!

Jangan pandu kalau mabuk. Okeytengsbai.

Found one.

Hope everything goes well this time. Much luck needed. *crosses fingers*

Monday blues.

"We're never gonna survive unless we go a little crazy."

-Seal

Sexy doctors!

I just got home from work. I had a pretty interesting day. I went to Cheras! I've never been to Cheras. (I swear, i'm not lying.) Jasmine wanted to get her sexy car pimped with massive alarm systems and all that. And after that, i had an event in Royale Chulan, a well recognized hospital's annual dinner themed Masquerade Night. It was nice to see doctors and nurses DRESS UP and let loose on the dancefloor. :)

I'm gonna take a hot hot shower and hit the bed. (The bed meaning, my very loyal one seater.) Have a great night, babies.

I'm craving...

For nasi lemak ayam. OMFG.

Kereta buruk.

I'm looking for a 2nd hand car.

Feel free to drop me a line if you know any motivated dealers. Kereta buruk pun kereta gak. Okeytengsbai.

It's a brand new year.

But why do i feel like doing this?

How was your New Year celebrations? :)