Soniye, heriye.

Soniye, heriye, teri yaad aandi yeh,

Seene vich tadapta hai dil, jaan jaandi yeh.

Tuhi jind meri yeh, dil da karaar ni,

Tuhi jind meri yeh, dil da karaar.

Tu aaje tenu rabda vasta.

Udekta main tera rasta.

Attention VS. Affection.

My boyfriend thinks i love attention.

But i just love affection.

BIG DIFFERENCE.

Attention is giving someone recognition, affection is giving someone love. Attention can be given without any physical emotions being attached to it, but affection comes from feeling within a person.

Attention doesn't evoke physical feelings, it doesn't have attachments.

Affection means we share a piece of ourself with another being. Affection pulls on to the heart, it causes us to laugh, cry, feel hurt and share emotions. Giving love and affection to someone can leave us open to pain, but the joys that come from affection outweighs the pain.

Think again when you're calling someone an attention-seeker. Because they just might be an affection-seeker. :)

.....

It's a new day, but the emotions remain the same.

The guilt.

The pain.

The horror.

And the emptiness.

I'm sorry.

I didn't mean to put you through so much of pain.

-_______-

Worst day, EVER.

Clutter.

Life has been a little out of track lately. Everything is so cluttered.

Pixie caught ticks! OMFFFFG. -_____-

Demon's becoming even more skinnier than he already is. Sigh.

The house is a terrible mess.

Time to get things back on track.

PS: Frontline Spray works wonders! (:

Damn you, blood sucking parasites.

This is love. (:

My precious. (: (:

But then again...

This past week has been extremely hectic. With classes on the way, things seem to be moving rather quickly. Its been assignments, deadlines, bills and neccessities the whole time. I miss my babies. Oh. My poor poor babies. I've been so busy, i haven't been spending much time with them. SIGH.

I've been missing home terribly.

I miss the folks.

I miss the good food.

I miss the love.

And the thing i miss the most is the smell of my dad's 'sarong' which he wears to sleep every night.

But the weird thing is, i've been away from home for almost four years now. I'm used to the lonely days and nights. Used to instant noodles at the middle of the night. Used to the silence.

Sometimes, i feel like a 30 year-old. Like i have to bear the responsilities of the whole world on my shoulders. So much to do, so much to say, so much to give.

But so little time.

I miss being a little girl. Carefree and innocent.

Running to my father when i feel sad, and he makes all the sadness disappear with just a few consoling words.

"Everything's going to be okay. I'm ALWAYS here."

But then again...

Lalala.

I need to pay bills.

I need to finish up assignments. (TONS!)

I need to start eating healthy.

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!

-____________-

Love will find a way...

Each and everyday.

Langkawi. I rindu!

Hello sayangs.

Sorry for the delay in postings. I've been extremely busy with classes. Oh. And did i forget to mention that i went on a vacay! Weeee~ To Langkawi Island!

Sun, sea and sand. It was insane! Pictures to be uploaded soon soon soon!