Happy New Year, peeps!

Baliikkkk kammpungggg!

Have an awesome one, you sexy motherfuckers!

Another list!

Babies.

Since it's the beginning of a new year, i thought of listing out certain things about me that some of you didn't know about.

"For the love of fucks", you'd probably be thinking. "What is it with the lists? What a loser?!"

Yes, dear readers. You would be correct. Because i am a loser. HAHAHAHAHA. So, here goes:

• I have an insane OCD about taking the last item available on the shelves of convenient stores. Say i feel like having a Coke, i go to the store and see the last available Coke sitting on the shelf, i'd rather drive elsewhere to get a Coke than take THAT last Coke. Call me insane. But, yeah.
• When i was 15, i used to think of myself as a Jamaican. Yes, a JAMAICAN. I listened to Reggae like, every friggin' day. I even vowed to get Dreads when i turned 18. The only thing i didn't do were "leafy greens".
• I have a baby pillow. Which is also called my "bantal bushuk". I don't care what people say, i'm taking it with me to my grave. (In my case, the crematorium?)
• I curse like a sailor.
• I love Japanese culture! (Thank God for Sushi.)
• I am a speed demon. The AWESOMEST death for me would be a gruesome car crash, while doing a 220 MPH. :)
• I am an animal lover.
• I have a HUGE thing for mean machines! ROARRR!
• When i was 7, a neighbour told me about how Buddhist monks in Tibet lived, eating only plain porridge and fruits. That they slept of floors and never had any kind of luxury in their lives, not because they couldn't afford it, but because they chose that lifestyle, to devote their whole being to Buddha. I ate plain rice with warm water for a whole week.
• I am very spiritual.

Happy Thursday!

PS: Currently listening to Heartless by The Fray.

Robert Pattinson and Bubble Teas.

Okaaaay. I had a weird ass dream this morning. A beautiful kinda weird.

I saw Robert Pattinson selling bubble tea. That pale faced, messy haired beaute, selling bubble tea! How weird is that? He even asked me what flavour i wanted.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

But before i could answer him, I woke up to Demon's cold, wet nose rubbing the edges of my feet indicating he needed to go to the toilet. Talk about wrong timing! And so, i walked Demon to the toilet and wishing he would hurry up so i could continue my beautiful dream. But when i tried to force myself back to sleep, i couldn't! Damnit. And my dreams of dreaming about Rob P. serving me bubble tea were shattered. -____-

Maybe next time it'll be champagne and strawberries. *crosses fingers*

Happy Birthday, Poopy Boy.

Love you, ALWAYS.

And Demon got the worst of it.

Demon: Let me go, you psycho. Someone get this girl a JOB! PLEASE!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Poor Demon.

Boredom reeks.

So, yeah. I guess this is how i'll look if i were a werewolf.

I sleep on the couch like an imbecile. It's a one seater, by the way. I have issues sleeping in my room. I have no idea why. But, yeah. Say hello to future back problems.

On a happier note, i get my pay check today! *shiny eyes*

Happy Tuesday, strangers.

Christmas, my child, is love in action.

Readers! How are ya'll doing? Good? Good!

If you've been keeping track, i had to work on Christmas Eve and Christmas. And so, i only left for home on the night of Christmas. Broke the traditions this year, but overall, it was a pretty okaaay Christmas.

WARNING: IMAGE HEAVY.

Yes. This is a toilet picture. And no, i wasn't taking a crap. I had a friggin' two hour break and the camera slut in me took over! :)

After work, Marshmellow took me for a Christmas Eve din din. I got to chose the venue! Without thinking twice, i picked Sakae Sushi, my favourite sushi joint. *shiny eyes* (Thank God for sushi.) And this is my very sexy Chawanmushi. Nyum~

And then, we stopped for a drink. Another favourite of mine, Green Tea Frappp. Nyum~

We stopped by Head Quartrs after 12am to continue the celebrations. And my darling, Jasmine joined me for a couple of drinks. (O...kay. It was a little bit more than a couple of drinks.)

When my eyes get that small, that's when you know i'm flying pretty high. Ahem*

I went home the next day after work, had dinner with the folks. Missed them all so much. *hearts* The star on our tree is a little crooked. My grandpa thought it was cuter this way. I think it is too. Creativity runs in the genes. Bahaha~

My gramps is soooo in fashion. Wayfarers, yo.

Boxing Day lunch with the family. A few missing from this picture. I love family meals. Feeds my soul. *hearts*

Last but never the least, this is my very pretty cousin, Sharlyn, whom i am missing dearly. I miss all of them. I love family gatherings. It makes me feel so... content. I just wish they would all stay just a little bit longer. Oh, well. Maybe next year?

I apologise for the blurry pictures. With my income, i can't afford a DSLR... yet! I had a pretty good Christmas. Hope you did too.

Merry belated Christmas, you sexy bitches!

Goodnight.

I think i just lost something that mattered the most to me. It hasn't exactly hit me... yet. But one thing's for sure, when it does hit me, the pain is going to be excruciating. When i wake up in the morning to an empty room with nothing to look forward to except the faint smell of pesticide and eucalyptus. When all i can hear are the glass doors shivering when the wind brushes through. When the only living beings around me are my cat and two dogs. With noone to talk to and answer my ridiculous questions. When noone is around to hear me sing off key. When all i do is sit in an idle mode, staring into space with a million things running through my mind. When noone calls to check up on me every hour, asking if i'm doing okay.When noone is around to tell me how their day was. When noone is willing to share a meal with me. When i walk alone in a strange place, with noone to hold my hand. When i have to sleep alone with just the sound of The Black Ghosts playing in the background. And when i wake up, just to find myself alone, yet again.

"Far, far away, no voices sounding, noone around me and you're still there

Far, far away, no choices passing, no time confounds me and you're still there."

Better late than never.

So yeah, Merry Christmas.

RIP Brittany Murphy.

My very own Charlie Brown Christmas tree.

I set up a tiny tree in my kitchen today! Okaaay. It doesn't exactly look like little Charlie Brown's tree. Mine has a bit more... volume. No presents underneath it, though. Oh. Except for Demon's Christmas bone. I haven't shopped for Melrose and Pixie. (I'm such a biased mother! -__-)

It's Christmas eve tomorrow. And i'm working. I have no plans, whatsoever. How has my life gotten so pathetic? -______- I miss my family.

Merry Christmas, folks!

PS: Currently listening to All Around Me by Flyleaf. (:

Last minute Christmas gift ideas.

For Dad. :)

Macallan 18 Scotch.

For Mum.

Spa voucher.

For Grandpa.

Sony rechargable batteries.

For Grandma.
Gardenia Passion by Annick Goutal.

For Sister.
The Time Traveller's Wife.

For Brother.

That 70's show. (Complete season)

For Aunt.

Scented candles.

For Uncle.
Toilet mug. :)

For Boyfriend.

Lord of the Rings themed Risk.

For neighbours/far relatives.

Cutely packaged Christmas cookies. :)

Merry Christmas!

I just hide behind the tears of a clown.

"Hell, we don't gotta trade shoes

And you ain't gotta walk no thousand miles

In my shoes, just to see

What's it's like, to be me

I'll be you, let's trade shoes

Just to see what it'd be like

To feel your pain, you feel mine

Go inside each other's minds

Just to see what we'd find

Look at shit through each others eyes."

Eminem- Beautiful.

Happy Birthday, G.

It was my grandpa's birthday yesterday. I couldn't make it back home because i was working. I called to wish him. The first thing he asked me was "Why didn't you come back?" My heart shattered into a million pieces.

I spoke to my aunt after that. (My aunt stays with my grandpa.) When i told her i'd be back on Christmas night cause i have to work, she got pretty upset. Sigh. So much yelling and hurtful words were used. Then, she hung up on me. FML. What am i to do?

Rant alert!

People! How are you? Good, i hope!

Okaay. So, it's like 5 days to Christmas. And i don't even have a tree in my house. How sad is that? Time just FLIES, doesn't it? I've been pretty busy with work. Sigh. My house looks so dull. (Cleaning update: It's ALMOST done.) Everyday after work, the first thing that comes to my mind is "So, what now?". Can you believe that? I find that extremely disturbing! Because a NORMAL person would go "YAY!".

Another disturbing thought, i think i'm an alcoholic. (HAHAHA.) It's really funny when i admit it because i NEVER do. I know i'm Indian and all. And i know all those sayings that go "Indians are born alcoholics" but yeah, i think i am one. Or at least, turning into one. I'm only really happy when i'm boozed up. I have issues, man! Oh, and today i saw a bunch of people carolling where i work, and i totally started tearing. I miss my family so damn much! Sigh.

I don't know if this is gonna make any sense to you. But yeah, just needed to rant!

Merry Christmas, people.

Philip Toledano: Days With My Father.

Days With My Father is a web journal of photographer Philip Toledano documenting his days with his father after the death of his mother. Amazing use of very simple words and yet it's made such a big impact on me. Days With My Father will resonate with me for a long time.

I was very fortunate to come across this web journal. I can't remember exactly where i found it but i'm so glad i did.

I couldn't stop crying. Reminds me so much of my dearest grandfather whom i love and respect more than ANYONE or ANYTHING in this world. (Eventhough i don't say it often. Wait. I've NEVER said it.) I'm dreading the day God decides to take him away from me. I really am.

You're my HERO. You're my PRIDE. Whenever i'm beaten and bruised, you've given me the strength to go on. You've shown what's deep inside of me. You've protected me.

And everyday i pray to God, thanking Him for sending you to me. And i want to thank you for showing me the true meaning of love. Without you, i am nothing. I love you, G.

Pfffttt!

I'm working on Christmas. FML.

Nisha's wedding.

Hey, kids!

These shots were taken during Nisha's wedding ceremony in Sacred Heart Church and the reception right after that. She looks gorgeous, doesn't she? First one in the group to tie the knot! Missing you, Subz.

I look so ghetto in this picture! Bahaha~

The food was AWESOME!

Bondage bunny.

No tears that fall,

No barred doors,

No inhibited desires.

Then i would gladly be bound to these,

Most beautiful,

Most enigmatic,

Most inescapable,

Chains.

I just realised something.

When you don't get what you want, you're miserable. When you get what you don't want, you're miserable. And when you do get what you want, you're still miserable.

Because you can never hold on to it forever.

Inspiration.

Cleaning update: Kitchen's done and done! (:

I'm so proud of myself.

Why?

Because i finally completed my PROPER resume! *big smile*

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